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Art Director / art : Janis

 Model : Janis

 Stylist : Neydie Mondésir

Photographer : Taino Roy 

 Music : Yingyann


I’m starting to take more care for myself. I’m in this mood where everybody pissed me off and I’m becoming lazier and lazier when it’s time to care for someone. I’m the kind of person who’s always there for the ones I love, I support them, I help them, I love them and I give them more motivation to pursue their dreams than I have for myself. But at the end of the day I always feel deeply alone. Nobody really wants to know how I feel and if I don’t feel good, it makes them go away faster. The only reason is, they don’t want to get involve with problems or they just don’t know what to say. It hurts, so bad, everyday. I don’t have enough energy now to help everybody, some people I thought would never do such a thing, broke my heart and now I need to become selfish, or I’ll probably die in my emotions.

By selfish I mean, I need to focus more on myself, more on my emotions and my needs and limits. I love helping others, that’s one of the thing that keeps me alive everyday. I wish I had enough time to know everyone a little bit better and be a little bit more there for them. I wish I could help every lonely souls in this world and I wish everyone was happy as hell and stop being anxious and trapped in there life. But if I don’t want to waste the rest of my life focusing on others happiness, I need to be more selfish and grow my own happiness. We are all in the pursuit of the happiness, there’s no time to waste, we need to start reaching happiness before it’s too late. We need to focus on everything that makes us happy and enjoy this moment. This feeling, we should all be able to have it. I guess I should start by this ; stop to overthink and enjoy the present.  

(End of 2017)